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Have you heard Nina's new song...Someday composed by Nyoy Volante? It's really a very touching song... it's about realizing somebody else's worth...Taking for granted somebody's feelings... That even if you've been hurt by someone in the past. Soon you'll be able to move on and find the person who is meant for you. SOMEDAY Someday you're gonna realize One day you'll see this through my eyes By then I won't even be there I'll be happy somewhere Even if i cared I know you don't really see my worth You think you're the best guy on earth Well I've got news for you I know I'm not that strong But it won't take long Won't take long Someday someone's gonna love me The way i wanted you to need me Someday someone's gonna take your place One day I'll forget about you You'll see i won't even miss you Someday, someday... Right now I know you can tell I'm down and I'm not doing well But one day these tear...

they say... it was... well, i guess it is. there are things that are too hard to say... coz it might hurt somebody's feeling... or you just have no guts to say it... when you like someone... and you just don't know how to say it... "eh idaan mo na lang ... pabiro!" some of my friends say it works... maybe it worked for them... there are times when we really wanted to say something to people pro you find it hard ...to start... it maybe something serious ... or something you think would hurt somebody...but you knew that you should tell him/her... i guess its the best way to say it... "pabiro or joking" at least it'll be lighter... nde parang sobrang serious ang dating... and you'll be able to laugh about it then... unless... manhid yung other party... well that's another case. i got this text message from my cousin... and it gave me an idea... that yeah maybe jokes are half meant... she advised me to send this to someone that i've be...

i was supposed to be super happy today... seeing him yesterday should've made me feel like i'm walking on the clouds but...i don't feel that way... i lot of things have been bothering me... maybe now i am beginning to expect things....to happen... and i definitely know that it would not...even in my dreams. God knows i tried my best to control my emotions...feelings... i just hope i can still hold on to it... i knew from the very start that ...we'll only be friends... (not more than that!) but i am only human... i never really thought i would feel this way... it's a sin... to expect something "special" would happen...between us... and i hate to feel this way... because we're friends... we've been friends for quite some time... we're not that super close... but i feel that we treat each other special... he's really very nice and kinda...sweet at times... but there are instances that i feel... he avoids doing things for me...its like there...

falling in love... we don't know when we'll feel it... but once it hits our heart... that's the only time we'll realize... indeed it's a nice feeling being in love...

the more you say those words... the more i get hurt... ...i have loved you... but we have to let go... things happen beyond our control...or by our own choice...or maybe it's destiny... we have to accept it... it's not a question... of loving... "i believe that once you've loved somebody... it'll always remain in your heart as long as you live....though it fades through time... but it's still there..." i still do... but we both know that we can't go on... each time i hear you say those words to me... i really try to ignore it... it's not that i don't... but that's how i really wanted to be...that's why you get no answer... if you only knew ... it breaks my heart ... more than you think...

i don't want to compete with anyone... or anybody in particular... but for the past few years i felt that some people even those who are close to me(friends)... tends to compete with me... one of my friends told me that maybe they just admire me that much that's why... they wanted to have whatever i have and do things that i usually do... in short... "hindi sila nagpapatalo sakin..." they always have something to say... about everything....she told me that i should be proud ... coz i am being looked up by them... but honestly i am not into this kind of competition.... what pains me is that... they're my friends...

Stone-cold, icy, bitter, cold-hearted...emotionless... I may look intimidating... strong on the outside... but i am not an ice princess. not as sweet as your typical girl next door... but i am not insensitive. i know i could not please everybody.... but its unfair if you're being judged in the way they see you not knowing the real person inside. I feel bad when they say i look very unapproachable and a person who's somebody not accomodating. but what can i do?! i tried to reach out to people... but its not that easy. (i look "richy-rich" daw accdg.to my friends) they still feel very aloof towards me. I can't blame them though... but i hope they wouldn't judge me as well. They say I'm "manhid"! Well, i guess i am...its case to case... sometimes i do it on purpose. So i won't get hurt. Honestly, i really have a hard time distinguishing "being nice" and "liking"... that's what my friend told me... if ever a guy sends his...

Today's October 9, 2006... its exactly 77 days before Christmas. Time really flies fast... we can now hear xmas carols over the radio, malls are now selling decors... "Pasko na naman"... Midnight sale...left and right, little children will now be very busy thinking of what gift they would ask for... carolers will now invade our doorsteps... Well, i just hope our xmas bonus will be given early (ha ha ha)... Christmas is a happy season... You can see smile on people's faces everywhere. When i was a child i remember... i used to believe in Santa Claus... (i think every kid believes in that) that we should be nice.. so he'll give us the present we wished for. Family gatherings, parties... feasting... But we should not also forget that... (some of us...does) its the birth of our Lord Jesus Christ.

It's Saturday ! This my fave day of the week (khit we have work)... Why, Saturday?! Well parang its the end of the whole week work and time to relax. Go malling or wherever you want to be--- just stay home perhaps. ha ha ha... a few years ago... i used to hear mass with my besprend during saturdays... and i stay with my lolo and lola's on saturday... well i miss that. now i just visit them bcoz of work. And most impt. walang coding kapag Saturday! ha ha ha....

UST Tigers bagged the UAAP 2006 Championship yesterday. I missed it, sayang. I was at the office when my cousin called me that they won the championship. I really wished i was there watching. Being so addicted to basketball and a UST alumni... grabe sayang talaga! But i am happy that they've won!

one of the so-so days... too much to do but was super lazy. the day is about to end but still i feel kinda "not so good". (haaay) maybe i was just tired. and to make me feel a lot better... the one thing i should do was write. this actually releases my tension, depression... i don't know na what to do if my pc's not around and most esp. i could not go online. i've read a friend's blog... and it really inspired me... well, if that happened to me. i'd do the same thing. and i admired him for what he's done! that only shows that money is not everything. it's the fulfillment on one's part. the things one could contribute to a group or organization. it's just sad that he had to move on and the other person who'd been.. the reason for all this...has to stay. but who knows...? there's nothing permanent in this world... everything changes... i hope soon... the management would open their eyes on what's really happening...

mahirap umasa sa wala... ...minsan pinipilit mo ang sarili na ikubli ang nararamdam ngunit kusa itong lumalabas... pigilan mo man. ...may mga tao na dumadating sa buhay mo na akala mo ay sya na ang inilaan sa iyo at ang iyong matagal nang hinihintay. ...mga pangyayari na akala mo ay totoo ngunit hindi pala. ...mahirap umasa sa isang bagay na hindi sigurado... ...mahirap umasa na mamahalin ka ng isang tao... ...mahirap umasa na hindi ka iiwan ng taong minahal mo. ...mahirap umasa dahil... masasaktan ka lang.

it's hard to say goodbye to someone you've learned to love.... for all the good and bad times you've shared that you've both made it through... but there are circumstances in our lives that we can't control. it's not a question of love... but... doing what is right... eventhough it's hard... we should try. in my heart i know... you will always be there... now and until forever...

though in Manila we only have 2 seasons... unlike in other countries who have 4... Winter, Spring, Summer and Fall. Most of the things we could see on most stores, boutiques and even in websites are those for fall/autumn season. Well here are some of the must-haves... which can run up to the winter... (sa Manila walang nito so this could run til the cool months of Nov., Dec up to Feb). Must-haves... What's in?! over-sized jackets and tops big belts skinny jeans/pants, leggings More of the 80's look this time... mini-skirts with leggings underneath it. short-shorts... rockstar shirts with big belts in metallic color. Colors this season... Navy Blues, black and white (which is usually for all-season), red (esp belts and shoes)... Accessorize - mostly Gold... but you can also done away with silver. depends on your skin tone. Chains are in... Chandelier and loop earrings... Sunnies/Eyewear - Oversized... aviators... Bags - Totes, big bags, woven... oversized... in striking colors.....

Heroes are made, not born. And this time, a young team proved that they are HEROES in the making... a team IGNORED by many ... a team unexpected to RISE... a team that is destined to GROWL ONCE MORE... it's OUR TEAM! We're on for the Championship... Let's pray for the TIGERS!!!

i really love art! colors, structures.. . i wanted to be an designer. when we're young we're really confused on what to take up in college... careers we want to pursue. i found myself ending up in accounting. but honestly i have learned to love my job and career path i took. but of course, there is something i really wanted to do... i love clothes.... fashion... anything that is quite connected with it. as well as, home/interior designing. that is why, i love collecting fashion magazines and catalogues... in order to update myself on what's the latest. honestly, there are some of my friends/relatives whom i've helped... in changing their image... well i can say, i'm kinda successful naman. which makes me feel a bit proud of myself that my style is being noticed by other people. in our new home, we didn't hire a designer for it. together with my brother we we're the one's who put together the stuff in the house. but of course, i have the final say. and th...