charmed life♥

it's 12 in the morning and i just can't sleep... darn!!! i am super exhausted but my eyes are still wide open. "Kaya nga ba eh" i really don't want to see and hear anything that make me remember him. For the past months i've been trying to avoid everything i'm quite successful na nga..(deleted text messages, boxed every gift, picture...probably everything...) but eto na...the one thing i'm afraid of...I tried not to think na it's all bcoz of him.. but as far as i can remember wala naman nangyari earlier to make me stay awake at this time. Everytime i tried closing my eyes... i see his smile...tears began falling down my cheeks...suddenly i'm missing him. hate it! WE met...when we're on the same boat... mending...letting go...moving on...maybe we'd both agree that we brought the smile back in our lives... I tried to avoid it seems like destiny is playing with me again... It's just sad it ended in a way that i guess we both ...

Music... my life... i don't know if i can live without it. From the moment i wake up and til i go to bed at night even when i'm at work... or driving it perks me up so i won't go sleepy. When i bought my ipod i got so addicted with it and wanted to have matching album art with every song that plays. But when you try downloading the same in iTunes it isn't free. Well i got so frustrated and i tried everything to be able to have every album image i could get over the net. I wanted to share some of it ... Kindly click on the link to access my album art albums... http://chiquisantos.multiply.com/photos/album/57 http://chiquisantos.multiply.com/photos/album/58

i received a text message from a friend last night... and as they say there are times when your into a situation and doesn't know what to do ... a simple message sometimes is connected with it and helps you make a decision... CONFLICT: the one i love or the one who loves me? COMPARISON: the one i love will keep me hoping but the one who loves me will offer me everything; the one i love can give me a moment but the one who loves me can give me eternity; the one i love can ease the pain yet the one who loves me can take that pain and own it instead; and the one i love could break my heart and the one who loves me will do anything to rebuild it... CHOICE: it's up to me. "there are times we often take for granted those person who loves us... and wait for that person we love...to conquer our world... and sometimes we regret it in the end... for not giving this other person a chance..." in our lifetime...a lot of decision have to be made... i guess we need to open our eye...

nothing's definite though... but i know i should be happy... but i can't understand why i am not... i've learned that my brother's getting married... (he haven't told us yet) i know it'll happen, in the near future... he's on the right age...but i feel its just too soooon... he's our baby... maybe i couldn't believe that he's settling down... that's why i feel this way...

i love to make you mine if it's the only way to hold you in my wild imagination still i don't know how to grab a chance and spent sometime for just a simple conversation. just give it a try though i'm not chasing rainbows in the sky i want to hold you in my dreams and make believe that it's true.. although i know, i know that it's impossible to do 'coz you're a star... people love you as you are... you're a million miles away from me. wish that you are here coz it's illusion everytime you're close to me and sing me love song. its the only way... i could tell the world i love you, although you're a million miles away... just give it a try though i'm not chasing rainbows in the sky i want to hold you in my dreams and make believe that it's true.. although i know, i know that it's impossible to do 'coz you're a star...you're a star... a million miles away from me... this song was sung by joey albert... in the late 80'...

There will be no ordinary days for you 'Cause there is someone who cares like i do You will have no reason to be sad anymore I am always ready with a smile With just one glimpse of you... You don't have to search no more 'Cause i am someone who will love you for sure So if we fall in love Maybe we'll sing this song as one If we fall in love We can write a better song than this If we fall in love We will have this melody in our heads If we fall in love Anywhere with you would be a better place. You can watch a movie in a different light I will be right there beside you hugging you oh so tight (oh so tight) Has my love feels so cold and empty again 'Cause I will keep on holding on and won't let go (never let you go) So if we fall in love Maybe we'll sing this song as one If we fall in love We can write a better song than this If we fall in love We will have this melody in our heads If we fall in love Anywhere with you would be a better place. Feel so good when...

Have you heard Nina's new song...Someday composed by Nyoy Volante? It's really a very touching song... it's about realizing somebody else's worth...Taking for granted somebody's feelings... That even if you've been hurt by someone in the past. Soon you'll be able to move on and find the person who is meant for you. SOMEDAY Someday you're gonna realize One day you'll see this through my eyes By then I won't even be there I'll be happy somewhere Even if i cared I know you don't really see my worth You think you're the best guy on earth Well I've got news for you I know I'm not that strong But it won't take long Won't take long Someday someone's gonna love me The way i wanted you to need me Someday someone's gonna take your place One day I'll forget about you You'll see i won't even miss you Someday, someday... Right now I know you can tell I'm down and I'm not doing well But one day these tear...